The beginning of the year always seems the appropriate time to take a step back and see what happened in the last few months…So let’s take a deep breath…
First of all, I am sorry for not keep in touch with the blog for the readers since school re-opened. I felt like everything seem to go into the opposite way, if you know what I mean. Perhaps I am the only one who feel this way.
The last year has been a busy for me…In September 2010, I had to draw the ovoids over and over. We all did draw about the ovoids in dreams. Crazy, hey but it did help! After Christmas 2011, everything I felt was under pressure and stayed sane with the deadlines for two Art gallery show. There were quite a lot of things happened in the Spring time and I thought I wasn’t even ready to finish all 4 assignments which was hectic. And then I finally graduated in April.
Now I look back to this Fall 2011 that I have gone through quite a lot. I have no idea how the heck I did manage to keep up with school and family schedule but hey I am still here!
What I have realized that I decide to make amends for 2012 that my priority is ME! I didn’t realize how much my life has been way off and over my head. After Christmas, I told my partner that I decide that I would start to look after myself first, then taking care of my lil’ man who is 4 years old with more TLC and well-balanced schedule for school, family and for myself too. I wasn’t thinking straight and my partner told me that I worked too way hard. I said, “Are you kidding, TW?” I thought I didn’t really I wasn’t trying hard enough to keep up with school. I realize that I have been staying up late quite a lot than I thought. This doesn’t sound good. I had to stop and re-evaluate myself whether I am sane or crazy enough to have less sleep whenever I don’t feel tired. Now I feel that I need to spend more time with my family: TW and my lil’ man. They are my whole world and I could not imagine without them.
I guess you probably all need to look at yourselves in the mirror. I remember one time, this individual once told me but I won’t mention the person’s name in here, however, someone told me to go home and look in the mirror, take a good look at myself. At first I didn’t believe that I was a success and I denied it. Somehow, someone said, “You are already a success so start now by saying this to your self everyday in the mirror (Oh and without laughing)". Well, it took me several practice to start believing in myself.
I hope I still have the confidence to keep it up for 2012. That doesn’t mean I need to spend less in school but tune up with the schedule and go for a walk with my dog everyday. That makes a big difference, even thought I thought I was going crazy for not able to keep everything together. I guess I better sign off and it is 11:36pm. See what I mean. I am pretty tempted to continue on and typing but I have to be a bit more firm with myself for getting enough sleep. Until next blog, I will come up with something more interesting, I hope so. Good night to all..Take it easy.
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